In love but can't do anything about it.?

I got married my senior yr in HS, was married 10 yrs, have 4 kids by her. She left me on the twins 1st BD. On my own for 3 yrs, got remarried for 4 yrs. Divorced again. Have dated a few people after that. I met someone in a chat room. The room I frequented, has chat room parties every month. That way, you get a chance to meet the people you talk to. So I met this woman and fell in love with her on site. We talked and started dating. Unfortunatly, we live 250 miles apart. I would visit her every couple of weekends and soon was EVERY weekend. We got really close. I even dropped everything in my life to move in with her. But.... Neither one of us was ready to get back in a relationship and I moved back home. We attempted to get back together once more The distance was a problem for her, even though I was the one to make the trip. This woman gave me the ability to KNOW what unconditional love is. It's been 3 yrs since I have seen her but my love for her has never changed.